"The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?" Jeremiah 17:9
When I woke up from my surgery in April my left foot was numb. It is still numb today. If I went solely on my "feelings" I could sometimes be convinced that I may never feel again in that foot. There are times when that foot feels colder than the other. If I went solely on my "feelings" I could be convinced that I had bad circulation. I cannot flex my foot without starting a chain reaction of muscle spasms. If I went solely on my "feelings" I would probably believe that this is how it was going to be forever.
However, when I look back at how far I've come since April, I realize that I have regained some feeling in my foot, it is not colder than the other, and the muscle spasms are fewer and farther between every week. The truth is, I am getting better little by little.
Sometimes our hearts overwhelm us. We go by our "feelings" and refuse to listen to truth because we simply want what we want. We want to feel loved so we put up with things we shouldn't. We want to be liked so we go along to get along. We want to have something we do not have, and so we strive desperately to create it, even if it is fleeting.
But truth is a beautiful thing. Truth sheds light in dark places. Truth doesn't make the dark, darker. Truth heals broken hearts. It doesn't continue abusive behaviors. Truth gives hope and new beginnings, it doesn't keep us locked inside of dread.
Sometimes, we don't want to hear the truth because it isn't what we want to hear. But one thing is always true. Truth exposes a lie. Truth exposes abuse. Truth exposes those things which strive to keep us tied down. In short, truth is what sets us free!
Whenever my heart temps to overwhelm me, I listen, instead to truth. And the truth sets me free every time.
Only By His Grace,