Luke 23:34 "Father forgive them, for they know not what they are doing."
In the past few hours I have faced the most intense attack I've ever known. Those I trusted, those I held closest to me proved to be untrue. My faith, my beliefs were attacked on a very personal level.
There are many things I will stand by and just take. I will turn the other cheek. But when someone attacks the very faith I have that has held me strong throughout all of this journey, righteous indignation burned within me. There are some battles worth fighting.
In the wee hours of the morning, when I couldn't cry another tear or pray another word, my heart's cry turned to Jesus's words, "Father forgive them, they know not what they are doing."
Forgiveness is a sweet thing, but it doesn't mean you continue to allow people to hurt you again and again. Sometimes you just have to say goodbye.
My heart is sad - and I didn't need the additional stress mere hours before this surgery. But my God is a God of peace - and he has sustained me through every step of this journey. I do not expect Him to leave me now.
In the meantime, when I cannot face the pain inside of me, when I don't have the strength to fight this battle, my heart prays, "Father forgive them. They know not what they are doing."
Only By His Grace,
Billie
May HE carry you! May HIS hands guide the surgeons. May the God of all Grace and Mercy be with you.
ReplyDeleteWith so much love for you my sister.